Lately I have turned into a grumping machine. I complain. I get upset on every little thing. I feel sad. I am not happy. No matter what I do to cheer myself up like go out shopping, go for dinner, go for a drive, watch a movie, watch my favs on Star world……..I am just not happy. I dnt remember the last time I laughed. And mind you I have or used to have a very cheerful and bouncy personality. My friends used to make fun on me that I can get hi on 2 two cups of tea and hence after end of exams the famous slogan “du chai(two tea) ho jaye”!! But now even two cups of tea make me happy.
Everything is fine at work. I am not over worked and underpaid. The timings are perfect. And I am doing pretty well here. Hubby gee loves me a lot and does everything that he can to make me happy. But I fail to understand why is it that I get upset every time the following things happen:
I am in the kitchen with Lady Z helping me around as both hurriedly prepare sehri. Hubby gee half awake half sleeping on the couch. As garma garm parathas and fried eggs make their way to the table, they disappear before you can say disappear. And all this time I am feeling fine. Hell more than fine. I am proud of myself as someone who was dependent of her mom for breakfast till like 6 months back can now take care of 5 people. I feel heroic. And as I wash the atta (wheat) off my hands and am embarking the journay from the kitchen to the dinning table I hear these words from hubby gee “ wo zarah garma garm chai tu bana du”. And that’s it. This is the time when I loose it. Hell man I have been standing making parathas while you have been dosing on the couch and when I want to eat u want TEA! Even though I dnt make the tea and the Chota makes it, I feel bad inside. Though I do not show it but I feel BAD.
Secondly I do not like people who preach to others but themselves so not follow themselves. There is a word for these people. What is it, a hypocrite? You tell others that do not make the domestic help (chota) work to much and while you warm the couch you tell him to bring water for you, to bring the remote for you which mind you is lying on the centre table!!! And u, yes YOU tell other to take care of chota!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!
WHY, just why do you expect that the dear wife to come back from work with roza and head straight to the kitchen while you head towards the bed / couch! Note the problem is not with wife going to kitchen but the problem is with her in the kitchen while you on the couch!! You ask what I am supposed to do. Dance for all that I care but don’t DO NOT sit in front of the tv on the couch with AC while the wife is in the kitchen being baked. AAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!
And after all of this and more, afer making her feel miserable you wanther to have a cheerful outlook and be happy!!! God Damn it! Are you human? Do u feel? Why are you so insensitive?
Yesterday I watched “Rock On” in order to relax myself and spend some good time together and you dose off!!And the you ask me why am I upset!!AAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!
If I did so much of screaming in real life I guess I could be auditioned for tarzan’s voice over while he swings from one tree to another.
Hence I am sad. I am not happy. Though I try to forget all these little things but they bounce back the very next time the same happens. And you know what the worst part is; I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO!!
I miss being able to crack jokes and people getting them in the first place without me having to explain, killingthe humor along.
I miss being able to be ME. But sometimes I think I do not even k now myself, anymore
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Dear Dear!!! First of all why arent u following my Blog haan? and in ur this blog i feel irritation of little things which comes unexpectedly. If ur husband wants tea with paratha then from next day make tea while u r making paratha. It happen all the time in home life dear, here even my grandma on iftari ask for things even we are prayering dua before azan, so the next day i make sure that thing reach the table before he demands it. Now working women have to deal with these double troubles all the time, never expect a man to work in kitchen with u becoz that is so rare ur bhai can but ur husband wont(mostly). U r thinking all negative yaar,even if he doze off he would be tried ofcourse,i m not saying that u are not. in Short dont think too much abt these things but i also know u r tried and upset with this difference btw ur and his routine at home, i hope its first ramazan thats why things are tough fo u i hope its get better after ramazan. For immediate remedy is to feel more heroic abt watever u do and say to urself thatdoing these things make u feel important that they/he is dependent upon u.In mean while take good rest,free ur mind with these hussels.This new excercise although u have succeed in it(taking care of 5 ppl) but it has stress ur body and mind and thats why ur feeling so irritated as u were not used to it. It happens to me in every summer. See my blog "Miiti Pao Policy"
crack jokes on me.. do some voodoo on me..
you will feel better...
Naari jaat pe atya-chaar hai sab...wob bhi ramzaan main!
LOL
Parathe isi trah khaye jaate hain..couch pe- unghte hue....chai ka order dete hue...traditions hain saab...kiya karen...
Sorry..but I an quite sensitive...but am laughing ...
Dia -
It requires courage to come out with such feelings.
Most newly wedded brides would shy away from expressing such thoughts...
I feel your husband is comfy enough in front of you and hence dares to doze of...this is a good sign :)
Other than that, for other daily chores, I feel you should talk it out and express what you feel instead of sulking and remaining quiet...he being a good hubby would definitely understand and would make himself more useful around household chores....
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