I think some bits of me are dying

There is nothing much to do for a housewife living with the in laws. The mother in law is the Queen of the house which translates into the fact that most if not all the things are under her control. The housewife a.k.a the bahu is the princess with limited powers.

The best thing to do is sleep. Yes sleep. Sleep till 11 in the morning; ofcourse after the princess has tended to the princess and set him off to conquer the office duties. The queen is very happy with this setting as she gets the whole morning to shout out her orders and make hour long telephone calls which are never made when the princess is around. What is the princess also starts to do the same i guess is the philosphy. Or MAYBE (notice the caps - yes they are intentional) I am so messed up in the head that i cnt even admit that someone is being nic and letting me rest. My own mom would have kicked me out the house if I ever slept for so long , even on weekends with me studying and / or working long hours. It is because of this up bringing that i hate sleeping.

Yes sleep your heart out. Sleep your mind out. Why? Because there isnt any freaking thing to do!!!

It's killing me. I am not the till 11oclock sleeping beauty. Am not. The alternative is to get up, say prayers and then read. But that too gets boring.

And hence some bits if me are dying. i dnt know which bits. But i am very sure some.

did i just give the impression that i dnt do anything? if i did i think it's because the things that i do "do" at home are of no - "zero" significance to me. I mean cooking - Max 1 hour and that too of i am making more than 1 dish. I do stuff which others try to make me feel is important but inside me i feel its.......crap! Not that i cook like crap. Food i cook is delicious. If u dnt belive me you will have to how much weight hubby has put on.!!

I miss my work. The projects, the deadlines, the tension, the emails, the meetings!! The competition!!!

I love the getting no sleep and having meeting in the morning. I love how tea tastes when you really need it to wake you up for the presentation.

I dnt want to die. I dnt want any bit of me to die.